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My Life as a Playlist Week 15

So this is a strange one. As you might guess I’m a little bit all over the place this week, its the last full week before my operation so depression has set in, I posted the Diary post that showed that I’d done something good to move forward with my life and regretted it every second after…

I’m just a little lost right now so I don’t think I can put into words my week.

SOOOOOOO last week I tried something different. This week I’ve just picked four songs and I’m gonna post the lyrics that speak to me without any commentary because… I physically can’t even begin to explain the pain I’m in without starting to ramble about being in love with a man who is indifferent to my existence, fearing I’m going to die on Thursday and just generally not really wanting to be alive anymore at the same time.

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365 Challenge : Playlist of the Week

Tell us how your week went by putting together a playlist of five songs that represent it.

Five songs? So five songs to represent from last Thursday to this Thursday?

Theory of a Deadman – I Hate My Life

Whilst most of the things that Theory of a Deadman point to for why they hate their lives don’t have anything to do with me the general feel of the song is very much how I feel. Not only that but its such a upbeat sounding song which really fits me. I’m miserable, I hate life yet for some reason I always put a brave face on and make others think I’m happy. “I hate my job, all of my rich friends, I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right. There’s no end in sight. I hate my life!” Truer words have yet to be mumbled.

Limp BizkitBreak Stuff

Just the perfect song to describe my feelings when my “best friend” let me down and also the general feeling when I started to get wound the hell up by the Portugese work experience kids we had. “It’s just one of those days, When you don’t wanna wake up, Everything is fucked up, Everybody sucks, You don’t really know why, But you want justify, Rippin’ someone’s head off.” That describe most of my days actually….

Andrew W.KWe Want Fun

It kinda has to be mine and Fiona’s soundtrack whenever we get together. Even if its just for a evening watching wrestling we end up being loud, laugh a lot and take loads of pictures whilst just looking to enjoy ourselves. Actually I think of her every time I listen to this song.

The All American Rejects – It Ends Tonight

I dunno this is just one song that always seems to be able to explain my mood when I’m having one of the strange days. Its kinda upbeat too, again its weird how depressing I can be and how much I can want to be dead yet manage to keep a smile… “Now I’m on my own side…” That was kind of a important part of the last week, I’ve started to really do things for myself more then other people even if it means losing friends.


Ed Sheeran – Photograph

I’ve recently been asked why I take so many photos when I do things and I think the song pretty much says it for me. Its just kind of taking something with you so that when life gets hard you have something to look at and remember that life isn’t always hard. I mean it doesn’t SAY that but that is kind of the message coming over (he’s talking about love I’m just talking about happiness in general.) Every time I go to a wrestling event I have to go through all my wrestling photos deleting ones that I don’t want. I think the ones I took over the weekend will stay on my phone for just about forever as it was a wonderful night.

Special mention goes to TeoCheesecake. Because who doesn’t need that song (and cheesecake if you like that kind of thing) in their life? “I lost my train of thought when you called me your sweet cheesecake” man that was a great song! Also My Chemical Romance – I’m Not Okay which is possibly their only song I’ll admit to loving and which sums up life in general for everyone I think. Plus its fun to dance too and sing along too!

Weezer – All my friends are Insects for completely the wrong reasons and that has nothing to do with the song or lyrics. Though it does say “I have a friend and she is a butterfly” so I guess that could be Fiona…  As one of my friends acted a bit like a insect (though that would be a terrible insult to insects everywhere) she was pretty awesome.

Rammstein Pussy as well just because. I mean who can’t hear this song and scream along to it? That has nothing to do with my week whatsoever but whilst shuffling through my music it came up and I couldn’t not mention it. This band IS the soundtrack of my life.

I used to kind of do this in my weekly blogs and doing it again now makes me kind of miss it. I might bring it back.