Suicide is a very complicated issue that people don’t like to talk about. As healthy physical and mental people its hard to understand why anyone would want to kill themselves but when you are looking at the end of your life anyway is it right to blame someone for wanting to die in their own way?
I probably have in the past gone into depth about what Wrestling means to me but after following Mark Hainsworth on Twitter its made me think deeply once more about not only what wrestling means to me but what the community has done for me too.
Honestly would recommend a follow to Mark on Twitter as he, along with a few others, are trying to build a positive and welcoming wrestling community on Twitter.
As someone who struggles with suicide on a daily basis its important to remind everyone that they aren’t alone. I can’t promise anything will get better but sharing how you feel always helps. Please before you do anything get in touch with someone, you really aren’t the only person feeling that way and you can get help.
Samaritans – 116 123 or you can e-mail them at firstname.lastname@example.org
Childline – 0800 1111
Papyrus – 0800 068 41 41 or e-mail them at email@example.com
Depression doesn’t care about who you are or what you have in your life and it can be the loneliest feeling in your life. You can be surrounded by people, have everything you think you want and be comfortable in life and still suffer worse then words can describe and that is OK. It is more then OK to feel the way you do no matter who you are and never let anyone tell you different.
Everyone feels like there is no hope or no way out, everyone feels alone and sad. When you have depression its difficult to find the first step out of the situation and you can get stuck there, this is where people without depression fail to understand you but its absolutely normal to feel that way, there is nothing selfish about how you feel and reaching out to people who feel the way you do or are there to help really does make you realise you aren’t alone.
Plus you can always get in touch with me if you need someone to talk to. You might feel like you are alone but you really aren’t. Please remember to reach out and never let anyone make you believe how you feel isn’t normal or OK. You are perfectly normal and you deserve to be happy.
I know… I had a horrible self promotion blog earlier and now I’m going to do my big puppy dog eyes and try and convince you to let go of some of your money to help a great company that ya’ll know I love by now.
My local wrestling company (Plymouth Wrestling Association) need your help.
Yeah we don’t really get many wrestling fans coming through even when we’re on the ball with reviews and the like but if this can just reach out to a few people who read it and pledge a little bit it means a lot to me.
For just £10 you can help the company plus gain a great DVD for your collection (or start a wrestling DVD collection) I was there for the 7th Anniversary Show in the front row and it was a epic night. Like all Crowdfunders you put in and get something out of it. No matter where you are in the world if you like wrestling then you’ll love this show.
Headlined by TNA Champion Drew Galloway against one of the best talents in the UK, Pride of Plymouth himself the English Lion Eddie Ryan, the night was just epic.
Just look at the photos over there on the sidebar they are from the night, I haven’t finished uploading them to Instagram but it was just brilliant.
Why this means so much to me?
Just over a year ago was when I became suicidal. It was a PWA show that really helped me get through that. It was their 6th Anniversary Show (headlined by James Storm and Abyss against the UK Dominator and PJ Jones) that gave me a boost that helped me see a light through the dark times I was going through. Since October I’ve been going to PWA and Pride Promotion shows religiously, they give me a reason to want to be alive. I’ve always been a wrestling fan and these guys go above and beyond. If I had more money I’d give more (anyone that knows me knows I pledged £35 for a Eddie Ryan t-shirt, I don’t want anything else just the t-shirt!) unfortunately I only work part time so don’t have any more to give.
I’m not being over the top or anything but truthful when I say that PWA saved my life last year.
So even if you can just give a little please do. The company means a lot to me, both of them do. I’ve been able to meet some wonderful people, had so many happy moments and got to witness some of the great British talent that you might never have heard of (but for £10 right now you can add a DVD and the knowledge of their greatness to your DVD library!) but who entertain and are just too wonderful for words. I haven’t met many of the Plymouth wrestlers but the ones I have have always been wonderful and they go out of your way to make you comfortable. Even in the face of someone like me that looks like they’d throw up on you rather then talk to you.
(OK the PWA guys I’ve only ever met Eddie Ryan who is a saint who puts up with me nearly crying every time I see him. Dude don’t make me get out my Eddie Ryan pictures, they are honestly like grandchild pictures now I get them out and gush about how proud I am to be his fan all the time.)
PLUSSSSSS the 20th May marks my 27th birthday! Not that it means anything to anyone but if you could make a pledge it would make me a very happy person. Nope? Not working? I’m sorry….
Regardless. Even if this can just get a few retweets or reblogs or just helps spread the word that would be great.
Thank you for your time. Go back to
reading my fanfic on Ao3 enjoying your Bank Holiday Weekend.
Just for extra effect me and Swamp-a-Doodle sporting my PWA t-shirt. Loved the first one can’t wait for any and all new ones. So go spreading the word (someone… At least my two fanboys!)
OK its a bit of a dramatic sounding title but I couldn’t think of a better way to describe it.
After having a conversation with someone at work I finally realised one giant problem with the way people handle being told that someone they know is depressed/suicidal or suffers from life crippling anxiety.
Instead of asking you why, how its triggered or if there was something that you can pinpoint that started it (questions you might not have answers too but at least it shows they are aware its personal to you and want to understand it) they tend to, with the best intentions at heart, tell you why you shouldn’t be, that things will get better and that you don’t want to kill yourself….
So three things have happened in the last month or so that have completely destroyed any positive work I’ve done in the last year to gain a little bit of confidence and try to find happiness within myself.
I’ve decided to write three separate blogs about the incidents because they are kind of long stories and also three very different blows to my confidence that deserve to have the time taken to explain them in full.
27th July – 2nd August
Week 16 Question :
Your views on mainstream music?
Don’t be a snob. Everyone likes different things so let them alone to enjoy what they like.
Plus if you are close minded about music then you’ll let some things slip by you that you could really like. I have known many people (no this isn’t main stream but its a example) who refuse to listen to German/Japanese/Italian music I have on my computer because they won’t understand the words but then listen to them and like them but still refuse to listen to more.
Music is music is music. Who cares what is mainstream or not? Let people enjoy what they want to enjoy and enjoy what you want to enjoy.