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365 Challenge : All Grown Up

When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever?)

Funny you should ask. I got a jury duty summons the other day which made me feel pretty grown up if I’m honest!

There have been a few times when I’ve done something and felt like a real grown up. That feeling doesn’t last very long though. Mainly at work I guess, when I deal with something really well, usually a pissed off customer, I tend to leave the situation feeling like I’ve handled it like a adult. Most of the time my life isn’t really grown up-ish. I never saw the point in being a adult all the time.

Bills tend to make me feel like a grown up.

Not having to go to school at first made me feel like a adult.

Now I just feel like a nobody all the time.

Then again I think the problem is no one could really tell you what feeling like a grown up is meant to feel like. So many people tell others to act their age or grow up or whatever but what does it even mean? Surely you are who you are and that just develops over time. There isn’t any problem with doing childish things from time to time, and some of my hobbies are classified as “childish” for no other reason then some people don’t like them. I like to read children’s books (reading Roald Dhal books at the moment) and watch kids movies and cartoons. It doesn’t stop me being a adult, unfortunately at the age of 26 I can’t really deny being a adult.

If growing up means being stressed out all the time, angry at the world and having a nagging feeling that I’m going to die alone then I’m already there.

If there is something special to being a adult then please do tell?

I’ll take my crippling anxiety and my childlike ways and sit in a corner if you don’t mind.

Week 9

2nd March – 8th March

As I said at the end of the last blog, the one that came out only a few days ago because I was so ill and down I couldn’t finish it and just gave up, the ending of February was all about surviving whilst the beginning of March, the very FIRST DAY of March, was about losing my shit.

Determination to make things better didn’t come about until now. Usually I do my best to write the entries either at the end of the day or else the next day or so. I’m writing a good deal of this on the Thursday, my lack of energy, worth and motivation meant that most of the week I was just surviving. The determination that I wouldn’t drown came today. Thursday.

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