So we did like this idea last year when we did it for a writing prompt thing and I was going to bring it back but never got around to it. I’ve been really ill the last few days so haven’t been able to do anything much so thought I’d at least bring this one out for the fun of it.
This isn’t like a really depressing blog post or anything I just couldn’t come up with a fancy title, which is kind of 2017 summed up.
Just going to take this moment to talk about some ups and downs of he last year and were we as a group and me personally are planning on going in 2018.
I am a very paranoid person. I really am. I have to second guess everything and the absolute worst thing anyone could do is compliment me because that is the one second I start to panic that actually I’ve done something wrong….
I’ve been told that no matter how comfortable you are being alone the majority of your life there will at least be one moment where you wish that you could fit in, you did fit in or you wanted to fit in.
As one of those annoying people who do and don’t everything (I do want friends, but I don’t want friends, I do want to go out with people and I don’t want to leave my house, I do want to talk to someone but I’d rather poke my eyes out then do so….) I can agree with that but I also know I’m unusual in general.
So the question becomes is it actually important to “fit in” and what does that even mean?!
It won’t surprise anyone to know I’m a introvert. I’m one of those really annoying types who wants to have loads of friends and feel involved but the second someone takes pity on me and tries to include me in anything I shy away from it because its too much.
I hate going outside, I hate having to communicate with people and I hate remembering that there is a world outside of the fantasy ones I create in my head.
With all my many problems both socially and just in general, if you come across these blogs and read about me you might think I’d be a easy introvert to pick out of a crowd. Yet the one thing I hear ALL the time is that people just don’t believe I’m a introvert.
Its bloody annoying too!
So first a update on the page.
Below I’ll explain the long and boring stuff (as it is a diary post and they are used for mental illness talk) but before that I’ll get down to it. We have EVERYTHING up to date. No really we do. Everyone has written every review they have needed too BUT its being held up, by me, in the drafts. As I have to double check spelling and tags and all that all the Yonderland, AHS, Ash vs Evil Dead and even just other misc posts have been piling up but with everyone working and me the way I am they’ve just been stuck in limbo.
THEREFORE I shall be doing my best to edit them over the weekend and get them out as best I can. I won’t have them all post to Facebook as most of the people who follow us on Facebook are there for wrestling reviews and nothing else (the Pride review will be out as I have actually written most of it, it’ll just be stupidly late as it is already.) I’ll try to spread them out over the next 7 or so days. I’ll try but be patient.
Why is it taking me so long?
I know… I had a horrible self promotion blog earlier and now I’m going to do my big puppy dog eyes and try and convince you to let go of some of your money to help a great company that ya’ll know I love by now.
My local wrestling company (Plymouth Wrestling Association) need your help.
Yeah we don’t really get many wrestling fans coming through even when we’re on the ball with reviews and the like but if this can just reach out to a few people who read it and pledge a little bit it means a lot to me.
For just £10 you can help the company plus gain a great DVD for your collection (or start a wrestling DVD collection) I was there for the 7th Anniversary Show in the front row and it was a epic night. Like all Crowdfunders you put in and get something out of it. No matter where you are in the world if you like wrestling then you’ll love this show.
Headlined by TNA Champion Drew Galloway against one of the best talents in the UK, Pride of Plymouth himself the English Lion Eddie Ryan, the night was just epic.
Just look at the photos over there on the sidebar they are from the night, I haven’t finished uploading them to Instagram but it was just brilliant.
Why this means so much to me?
Just over a year ago was when I became suicidal. It was a PWA show that really helped me get through that. It was their 6th Anniversary Show (headlined by James Storm and Abyss against the UK Dominator and PJ Jones) that gave me a boost that helped me see a light through the dark times I was going through. Since October I’ve been going to PWA and Pride Promotion shows religiously, they give me a reason to want to be alive. I’ve always been a wrestling fan and these guys go above and beyond. If I had more money I’d give more (anyone that knows me knows I pledged £35 for a Eddie Ryan t-shirt, I don’t want anything else just the t-shirt!) unfortunately I only work part time so don’t have any more to give.
I’m not being over the top or anything but truthful when I say that PWA saved my life last year.
So even if you can just give a little please do. The company means a lot to me, both of them do. I’ve been able to meet some wonderful people, had so many happy moments and got to witness some of the great British talent that you might never have heard of (but for £10 right now you can add a DVD and the knowledge of their greatness to your DVD library!) but who entertain and are just too wonderful for words. I haven’t met many of the Plymouth wrestlers but the ones I have have always been wonderful and they go out of your way to make you comfortable. Even in the face of someone like me that looks like they’d throw up on you rather then talk to you.
(OK the PWA guys I’ve only ever met Eddie Ryan who is a saint who puts up with me nearly crying every time I see him. Dude don’t make me get out my Eddie Ryan pictures, they are honestly like grandchild pictures now I get them out and gush about how proud I am to be his fan all the time.)
PLUSSSSSS the 20th May marks my 27th birthday! Not that it means anything to anyone but if you could make a pledge it would make me a very happy person. Nope? Not working? I’m sorry….
Regardless. Even if this can just get a few retweets or reblogs or just helps spread the word that would be great.
Thank you for your time. Go back to
reading my fanfic on Ao3 enjoying your Bank Holiday Weekend.
Just for extra effect me and Swamp-a-Doodle sporting my PWA t-shirt. Loved the first one can’t wait for any and all new ones. So go spreading the word (someone… At least my two fanboys!)
If you could have any author – living or dead – write your biography, who would you choose?
You know I read the question and automatically thought of Terry Pratchett. Of course I would! He’s my hero and I read his books all the time. Love the way he brought humour to everything but still within that humour managed to give some real heart wrenching stuff.
Then I thought my life probably needed something a bit different.
Theodor Seuss Geisel, or Dr. Seuss.
Think he’d probably be one of the best for me. My life makes very little sense so having it written by him would probably make more sense then it has.
Though I’d quite like Lewis Carroll to have written a nonsense poem about me. That would have been cool.
I do think it would have to be someone that just wrote crazy things. I think to write about my life you’d have to write about what went through my head and its more like living in Wonderland then the real world.
Then again my life has been so disappointing that it would probably be written by Philip Larkin. Go figure.
Anyone think of anyone better?
“Dig through your couch cushions, your purse, or the floor of your car and look at the year printed on the first coin you find. What were you doing that year?”
I found a coin in my bag, it was a 50p from 2008.