I guess a warning. Another random rant about how messed up my head is.
Everyone has them, things that make life just that little more bearable every day. With my depression these things, no matter how weird they might sound, are a must as I wake up every day in a constant battle with myself but couple it with my personality and it can be dangerous.
I’m obsessive by nature.
Continue reading Diary #35 : What Makes me so Happy Makes me so Sad.
I very much hope that every single one of you had a lovely Christmas and getting to have a lazy Boxing Day. For those who had to work I hope people treat/ed you with respect and it went well and for those who celebrate other holidays or nothing at all I hope you just had a good day!
Whilst it is easy to think that for one day a year people can just turn off their feelings and get in the Christmas mood that just doesn’t happen.
Continue reading Diary #30 : Depression doesn’t stop for the holidays!
So usually these posts are inspired by something that has happened to me. I like sharing the stories and how I feel because it makes me feel better when I’m down knowing others go through what I do and I’m not alone, I’m not broken because I feel this way I just have to keep fighting.
This time I guess it is and isn’t inspired by anything.
On the one hand it is something I’ve noticed in my life and on the other it is just something that popped into my head.
Being depressed doesn’t necessarily mean you’ve been through depression and depression isn’t the same as being depressed….
Continue reading Diary #29 : Depression and Depressed aren’t the same thing…
It is a serious question I’ve had to try and figure out this week, as my depression hits harder then it has all year (I’ve probably said it before but I’ll back this up in a moment) I just find myself sitting there asking why I had to be me?
Why can’t I be someone else?
Continue reading Diary #27 : What to do when you just don’t want to be you anymore?
So I said in my Playlist that I’d write a little bit about what is going on so here is what is going on.
Continue reading Diary #25 : Pain, Depression and no Motivation…
Yes I know, I know. Not only did the streak end but week 33 just didn’t happen. In fact recently nothing has been happening and its a mixture of depression, anxiety, hard work and being in so much pain that if I’m not at work being forced to be awake I’m at home either crying in pain or napping to get away from the pain.
I don’t really want to dwell on the pain and the crying right now, some terrible news was passed to me today which I don’t have the time to really digest right now seeing I still have two more days of work so a complete cop out week is in order.
Remember I did that ridiculous blog with my childhood songs? Well here are four, only four I promise, from my actual CHILD childhood that mean nothing personally other then being things I listened too before I was old enough to know better or have much choice. I’ll hope to have a blog out latter in the week explaining everything. At least by Thursday.
Continue reading My Life as a Playlist Week 34
So another week has gone and we’re still on our streak. I pretty much did a proper blog last week after a cop out the week before. This time… I dunno, I’ve managed to pick seven, count them SEVEN, songs I THINK I can do something with so lets see what we get.
Continue reading My Week as a Playlist Week 31