If you didn’t know I’m having a operation today. How could you not know?!
Just as I can’t go a week without crying about the same old same old I don’t think I’ve missed a beat reminding people I’m probably going to die. So I thought why not dedicate OPERATION DAY to 5 things I probably should have said to people before there was a chance that I could die.
Not that I’m going to die… I mean lets be positive about this. Hopefully. Maybe.
Continue reading 5 Things… I could possibly die today so here are 5 things I probably should have said before I died… Technically said, probably, before I’m dead seeing its scheduled to post before I’m actually being operated on… Possibly.
So this is a strange one. As you might guess I’m a little bit all over the place this week, its the last full week before my operation so depression has set in, I posted the Diary post that showed that I’d done something good to move forward with my life and regretted it every second after…
I’m just a little lost right now so I don’t think I can put into words my week.
SOOOOOOO last week I tried something different. This week I’ve just picked four songs and I’m gonna post the lyrics that speak to me without any commentary because… I physically can’t even begin to explain the pain I’m in without starting to ramble about being in love with a man who is indifferent to my existence, fearing I’m going to die on Thursday and just generally not really wanting to be alive anymore at the same time.
Continue reading My Life as a Playlist Week 15
So I had my pre-op appointment today and some weird things happened to me and I made a big decision in my life knowing full well it is never going to be the same again after next week anyway so I’ll kind of explain as much as I can below and hope you all forgive me for being absolute shit for the next few weeks.
Continue reading Diary # 23 : A Out of the Blue and Strange update
I think the concept of Happily Ever After is stupid.
Life would not be worth living if one event meant you lived a trouble free life from that point on.
Struggles in life is what makes us human. You learn from mistakes, you grow as a person, you meet people that you’d much rather not have but all these little things gives you a life worth living. Even with the perfect job, the perfect house, the perfect partner and the best things happening that you could imagine something negative will happen at some point.
In fairy tales happily ever after is usually begun by marriage. In our times you see the amount of people who enter into these unions just to break it once again, you might be happy for a year, ten years even more but there can always be that day that breaks you.
Instead of waiting for a Happily Ever After moment you should strive to live for the moment. Something bad will always happen at some point but facing it all with a positive attitude instead of facing it with blind, childish belief that fairy tales are real is the way to live life.
Only a fool would believe they’ve had a “Happily Ever After” moment.
As always at the last minute I was asked to draw something for Valentines Day WHILST working and having to do 100 other things. So I have a half finished drawing which I have to share straight off my phone!
It is also, unfortunately, the wrong way round. I will change that when I get home tonight!
Of course if you are alone on Valentines don’t get all grumpy and upset! There is no limit on the things you are allowed to love. I’ve brought the co-worker I’m working with a card, she’s buying MaccyDs for us and when I get home I shall watch myself some Bottom whilst cuddling into my Lionhearts t-shirt and playing Game of Thrones. Because at the end of the day if you don’t have anyone and your friends are all loved up, busy or miserable you can always love yourself.
As always be safe and happy!