I will start with a question.
Is there a universe out there that you’ve read about in a book that just seems so real and alive to you that it upsets you deep inside that it isn’t real and you aren’t there? Are there characters that touch your heart so tenderly that you don’t care if people think you are stupid but as far as you are concerned you know them? You are more emotionally attached to them and their plight then you are of real life people right in front of you?
If you have I’d love to know which ones so leave me a message in the comments. If not then why not?
Let me tell you about some of mine…
Continue reading Diary #6 : Fantastical Books and the Impression they leave
What roles does music play in my life?
Well if you asked me simplistic questions like “have you heard of so-and-so” or “what type of music do you like” you might think I have no real interest in music.
You’d be half right.
For me music isn’t about putting things in departments and scorning those who like something different. Like just about everyone on the planet for me music is about therapy more then anything. Of course certain things I don’t like and for every mood there is the perfect mixture of music to help calm life down.
I love sitting with my headphones in reading a book or just sitting in the park watching the world go by. Its the one time I feel truly alive. When I’m sad I love to listen to heartbreaking songs and remind myself that pain is only a fleeting thing and that billions of others will feel the same way that I do at any given second, heck countless people might be feeling the same way and listening to the same song just to get over it.
Like most things music has its way of bringing people together and giving us a bond that we wouldn’t otherwise have.
I might not know a whole lot about music but it plays one of the most important roles in my life.
The last time I broke a big rule?
You might find this hard to believe but I don’t think I ever have! I’m a bit of a goody two shoes if I’m honest. There isn’t anything I can think of off the top of my head. It sound really stupid but there just really isn’t anything I’ve ever done that applies.
Now small rules here and there of course I’ve broken from time to time!
I’ve phoned in sick when I wasn’t just so I can skip work and go to the movies or a book signing. I skipped classes at school because I found them boring. I sit too close to the TV from time to time. I don’t always look where I’m going whilst crossing roads. I don’t even hold a adults hand when crossing a road anymore! I talked to strangers as a teenager, I don’t pay attention to my drinks on a night out…….
Actually none of those are really breaking rules they are just me being ditzy.
I feel like my life is actually pretty boring. Maybe I should do something really rebellious before I die? Then again I don’t want to do something I’ll get into trouble for!
Oh the life of a goody two shoes!
This has all just reminded me of Hermione Granger.
“Now, if you two don’t mind, I’m going to bed before either of you come up with another clever idea to get us killed or worse… Expelled!”
Yes I was that kid at school even though I did skip a few classes here and there. I’d rather do as I was told then get into trouble and its carried on into my adult life. Does that make me really boring? I sound so old.
Give me the chance to read the story of my life and I possibly would have to turn you away.
The thing is I’d be interested in reading it. I’d love to read my past. Memory is a horrible thing and even if you remember something your perception of the event changes with time. Something that was once a lovely memory could be tainted by a more cynical viewpoint later in life. So I’d love to be able to sit back and read quite plainly everything that ever happened.
Remember that time that you got a award you completely forgot about? Or that time you made a awesome piece of art? Or that friend who is but a mere memory?
Wouldn’t that be amazing?
Why I’d give it back though is because as much as I’d love to remember my past I don’t want my future spoilt for me.
I guess some people would like forewarning. Some people might like to think they’d be able to change what came next. Some just don’t mind spoilers.
For me it would remove all the magic of life. Yes I go through hard times but its the amazing moments that make life worth living! I might like to be told that at some point something amazing would happen to me or be able to prepare myself for something awful but it would take the whole point of living through these moments away from me. If I knew that this amazing, wonderful thing was going to happen tomorrow why would I be happy to see it happen? I knew it was going to happen so its more then just seeing how it plays out. If I knew something terrible was going to happen the day after I’m not going to enjoy the day before any more then I would have if I didn’t know the bad thing was going to happen, forcing myself to enjoy the good thing because the bad thing is happening too is just letting the bad thing take control of my life.
Maybe on my death bed I’d like to read it sure.
Then again technically we are already reading our own story from cover to cover just by being alive.
Would you really want to spoil the rest of your life by already knowing the good and the bad that happens?
4th May – 10th May
Week 8 Question?
Something you’re currently worrying about?
My weight and the fear nothing I will ever do will ever make me lose any. Seeing I’m wasting money on eating as healthy as possible, tried so many work outs and am more active then ever (AND drinking plenty of water) yet I’ve put on weight I’m starting to think I will always be fat.
Continue reading Week 18
30th March – 5th April
Week 3 Question :
Your views on drugs and alcohol?
Personal choice. I drink but I don’t take any drugs, if someone started to tell me what I can and can’t do based on their “views” I’d be pissed. I also feel a bit hypocritical to tell people what they can and can’t do when I don’t know anything about their lives or why they take or do the things they take or do in the first place.
I just hope people don’t use them to destroy themselves that is all.
Continue reading Week 13
23rd March – 29th March
Week 2 Question :
How have you changed in the last two years?
Well its funny. I’ve become more confident without really showing it, I’ve become more open without really knowing it and I’ve become happier without ever feeling it.
Strange I know but its true.
Two years ago I’d jump at my own shadow (OK I still do that quite often,) I couldn’t make eye contact with anyone and I kept everything bottled inside me till I exploded (strangely enough I DID explode two years ago which is probably why I changed.)
I’m getting to the point where I don’t care what I think everyone else thinks about me (yeah stupid) because I’m kind of happy with myself the way I am. I still have a ways to go but I’ve got to the conclusion that to be honest if I just smile and be myself I’m going to turn out fine regardless of whether I think at that time I’m going to be fine. Everything will turn out alright I just need to keep doing the things that make me happy. Of course that is always hard but I’m trying.
I’m trying. *Shakes fists* I’m trying….
Continue reading Week 12
9th March – 15th March
A much more relaxed week ahead which means time for me to lie back and try and relax a little more.
The most important thing is to try and become more positive and mentally recuperate.
Continue reading Week 10