Its been a crazy week if I’m honest but I’m not too sure I want to put too much of it into words so again I’ll try but most of this will be a cop out.
Death is the ultimate end. Should we fear it?
One of the definitions of life is ‘the existence of an individual human being or animal’. Based purely upon that notion, surely if we were to live in a computer simulated world we would still be living because we are still existing?
I thought I liked this question then I got stuck trying to answer it and I guess it comes in two bits.
1. Is life meaningless if I personally or one person in general lived forever.
2. Is life meaningless if everyone lived forever.
I am a very paranoid person. I really am. I have to second guess everything and the absolute worst thing anyone could do is compliment me because that is the one second I start to panic that actually I’ve done something wrong….
I’ve been told that no matter how comfortable you are being alone the majority of your life there will at least be one moment where you wish that you could fit in, you did fit in or you wanted to fit in.
As one of those annoying people who do and don’t everything (I do want friends, but I don’t want friends, I do want to go out with people and I don’t want to leave my house, I do want to talk to someone but I’d rather poke my eyes out then do so….) I can agree with that but I also know I’m unusual in general.
So the question becomes is it actually important to “fit in” and what does that even mean?!
Have I ever felt Deja Vu?
Yes but not in the real sense of it.
I feel it a lot when I start talking to proper hard headed fans of things. You can feel it coming. You could be talking about something completely different and suddenly that curve back to the same old same old just comes at you. You can feel yourself on the curve and do your best to put a barricade down but eventually no amount of pushing against that wave will stop it.
Also feel it a lot when you talk to people at work. That sudden feeling of “been here before”.
I don’t think I’ve ever had real Deja Vu though.
In a way I’ve always wondered how it feels. I’ve had others explain it to me, Amanda is pretty sure she’s lived through some events two or even three times, being able to see the results so clearly because she’s known she’s done it before. It amazes me, it also works into my life view that when you die your life is like a loop and you just replay it. I like that whole “your whole life flashes before your eyes, its called living” idea. When you die you just go back to the beginning.
Unfortunately it just never happened for me.