We are starting a new streak! Week 1 of not missing a blog. I missed it last week to overcome my social awkwardness and going out and it pretty much has meant we’re starting streak number 2 of 2018 much more happy then streak 1 was.
For the first time this year I missed this blog! That is pretty much 2 months of the year without missing one.
To be fair though there was a good reason for me missing it. As always though I’ll tell you that story through song…
I probably have in the past gone into depth about what Wrestling means to me but after following Mark Hainsworth on Twitter its made me think deeply once more about not only what wrestling means to me but what the community has done for me too.
Honestly would recommend a follow to Mark on Twitter as he, along with a few others, are trying to build a positive and welcoming wrestling community on Twitter.
I’ve never kept it a secret that I work in retail. Always have. When people know how bad my depression and anxiety are they tend to be surprised to hear it but I’m also a people person deep DEEP down and I quite like retail. It isn’t always as bad as people make it out to be.
Then again I was raised to be polite to people, to remember that everyone makes mistakes so you should be kind and having depression and anxiety means I’m fully aware that you NEVER EVER can tell how the person you are talking to feels at that moment so you treat them the way YOU want to be treated, you smile and you are just, in general, nice.
When did it stop being so easy to be nice?
My first week back at work and boy would you not realise that I’m the same person. I’ve actually been over excited about just going to work.
I am that crazy.
So this is my last day of holiday and I’m sat here wasting the hours away until DEFIANT Wrestling is on and depressing myself over my return to work tomorrow. Four days in a row. Four days…
As someone who struggles with suicide on a daily basis its important to remind everyone that they aren’t alone. I can’t promise anything will get better but sharing how you feel always helps. Please before you do anything get in touch with someone, you really aren’t the only person feeling that way and you can get help.
Samaritans – 116 123 or you can e-mail them at email@example.com
Childline – 0800 1111
Papyrus – 0800 068 41 41 or e-mail them at firstname.lastname@example.org
Depression doesn’t care about who you are or what you have in your life and it can be the loneliest feeling in your life. You can be surrounded by people, have everything you think you want and be comfortable in life and still suffer worse then words can describe and that is OK. It is more then OK to feel the way you do no matter who you are and never let anyone tell you different.
Everyone feels like there is no hope or no way out, everyone feels alone and sad. When you have depression its difficult to find the first step out of the situation and you can get stuck there, this is where people without depression fail to understand you but its absolutely normal to feel that way, there is nothing selfish about how you feel and reaching out to people who feel the way you do or are there to help really does make you realise you aren’t alone.
Plus you can always get in touch with me if you need someone to talk to. You might feel like you are alone but you really aren’t. Please remember to reach out and never let anyone make you believe how you feel isn’t normal or OK. You are perfectly normal and you deserve to be happy.