I guess a warning. Another random rant about how messed up my head is.
Everyone has them, things that make life just that little more bearable every day. With my depression these things, no matter how weird they might sound, are a must as I wake up every day in a constant battle with myself but couple it with my personality and it can be dangerous.
I’m obsessive by nature.
Continue reading Diary #35 : What Makes me so Happy Makes me so Sad.
So you might have noticed we did really well for a couple weeks and then last week everything just went to pot.
As always there is a reason and hopefully as this week rolls on it’ll stop being a reason that everything is held up and just disappear from my life for good. That reason is pain and I’ll explain a little about it below.
Continue reading Diary #34 : Pain. The Real Enemy.
I very much hope that every single one of you had a lovely Christmas and getting to have a lazy Boxing Day. For those who had to work I hope people treat/ed you with respect and it went well and for those who celebrate other holidays or nothing at all I hope you just had a good day!
Whilst it is easy to think that for one day a year people can just turn off their feelings and get in the Christmas mood that just doesn’t happen.
Continue reading Diary #30 : Depression doesn’t stop for the holidays!
So usually these posts are inspired by something that has happened to me. I like sharing the stories and how I feel because it makes me feel better when I’m down knowing others go through what I do and I’m not alone, I’m not broken because I feel this way I just have to keep fighting.
This time I guess it is and isn’t inspired by anything.
On the one hand it is something I’ve noticed in my life and on the other it is just something that popped into my head.
Being depressed doesn’t necessarily mean you’ve been through depression and depression isn’t the same as being depressed….
Continue reading Diary #29 : Depression and Depressed aren’t the same thing…
Sometimes life can be miserable, there can be a problem that has been a problem for so long that those around you are just fed up of hearing about it and have views on the matter that mean you can no longer just talk about a situation because their response is based on a long standing feeling from months and months of trying and helping you.
It can be lonely.
It can suck balls.
Honestly it can be one of the loneliest part of life.
Continue reading Diary #28 : Sometimes Strangers Help…
It is a serious question I’ve had to try and figure out this week, as my depression hits harder then it has all year (I’ve probably said it before but I’ll back this up in a moment) I just find myself sitting there asking why I had to be me?
Why can’t I be someone else?
Continue reading Diary #27 : What to do when you just don’t want to be you anymore?
I’ve tried to touch on the vicious circle of poor sleep, poor waking up and depression before but seeing today was such a big day for me for really random reasons I thought I’d let everyone know about why days like today are my absolutely biggest fear.
Continue reading Diary #26 : Days like today…