We are starting a new streak! Week 1 of not missing a blog. I missed it last week to overcome my social awkwardness and going out and it pretty much has meant we’re starting streak number 2 of 2018 much more happy then streak 1 was.
For the first time this year I missed this blog! That is pretty much 2 months of the year without missing one.
To be fair though there was a good reason for me missing it. As always though I’ll tell you that story through song…
I probably have in the past gone into depth about what Wrestling means to me but after following Mark Hainsworth on Twitter its made me think deeply once more about not only what wrestling means to me but what the community has done for me too.
Honestly would recommend a follow to Mark on Twitter as he, along with a few others, are trying to build a positive and welcoming wrestling community on Twitter.
I’ve never kept it a secret that I work in retail. Always have. When people know how bad my depression and anxiety are they tend to be surprised to hear it but I’m also a people person deep DEEP down and I quite like retail. It isn’t always as bad as people make it out to be.
Then again I was raised to be polite to people, to remember that everyone makes mistakes so you should be kind and having depression and anxiety means I’m fully aware that you NEVER EVER can tell how the person you are talking to feels at that moment so you treat them the way YOU want to be treated, you smile and you are just, in general, nice.
When did it stop being so easy to be nice?
My first week back at work and boy would you not realise that I’m the same person. I’ve actually been over excited about just going to work.
I am that crazy.
So this is my last day of holiday and I’m sat here wasting the hours away until DEFIANT Wrestling is on and depressing myself over my return to work tomorrow. Four days in a row. Four days…
For some people nothing is going to stop them being the happy positive wonderful humans they are. That’s all good and well for you. Today, or just recently I guess, I’m sick of people telling me that I’m too negative and that if I just Lived in the Moment I’d be much happier.
Just because it works for you it doesn’t mean its going to work with someone like me.