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Diary #35 : What Makes me so Happy Makes me so Sad.

I guess a warning. Another random rant about how messed up my head is.

Coping mechanisms.

Everyone has them, things that make life just that little more bearable every day. With my depression these things, no matter how weird they might sound, are a must as I wake up every day in a constant battle with myself but couple it with my personality and it can be dangerous.

I’m obsessive by nature.

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Diary #34 : Pain. The Real Enemy.

So you might have noticed we did really well for a couple weeks and then last week everything just went to pot.

As always there is a reason and hopefully as this week rolls on it’ll stop being a reason that everything is held up and just disappear from my life for good. That reason is pain and I’ll explain a little about it below.

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The Anxiety Experiment #3 : Bear With Me Episode 2 Part 2

We still haven’t finished Episode 2 mainly down to time constraints, some down to me not finding a item I needed and a lot down to my internet/Streamlabs/Whatever playing up…

 

It is starting to get disheartening though.

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The Anxiety Experiment #1 : Bear With Me (quite literally) Episode 1

So I wrote that I was going to stream mainly to force myself to have to stream and well… It worked.

Here it is archived forever on YouTube for you lovely people to watch if you have a spare nearly two hours!

 

So with any experiment there needs to be more then just proof that this thing happened and there needs to be a point to all of this so the wordy stuff that I SAID at the end of the stream was going to be better done on here and won’t be is underneath!

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Diary #33.1 : So it begins… (The Prequel blog…)

The last post was about where I was and what I was planning on doing going forward, obviously I haven’t implemented the schedule that I had hoped to get done in the last two weeks but today has been a bit of a break through and I have everything set up.

This isn’t going to be a big essay telling you everything.

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