I am struggling very much to think of even one song to pick for it. I think I said last week that I have a new mood chart thing that I fill in at the end of every day as a reminder that the bad times don’t last forever but in a week full of neutral greens I’m struggling to think of anything that actually happened…
Break Stuff – Limp Bizket
So as I said the week has pretty much been a green week but that hasn’t stopped me getting absolutely pissed at work.
We’re finally back to normal with stock but jeez does it get your back up when people act like you personally actually do these things to upset people. Like we would keep things hidden in the back just to piss off people.
Its just one of those days
Where you don’t want to wake up
Everything is fucked
You don’t really know why
But you want to justify
Rippin’ someone’s head off
Even when you don’t work full time sometimes you just wake up and you feel like you should be able to smash everything up and go back to bed. I really wish I could just go back to bed and get paid for it.
Thank You For Loving Me – Bon Jovi
So what has come up a lot recently on Facebook is old comments left on my page by Pete, as you know Pete died last year and it really upset me because he was one of my best friends and probably the person who loved me the most.
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
No matter what happened in my life he was always there for me, supporting me and loving me.
Wish there was a way I could really say thank you to him.
It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
THOUGH also one point in my life this part of the song itself…
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a different blue
Might just be needed, because I’m still never going to give up on my dream man falling in love with me. Its completely unrealistic to think he will but yeah…
Somewhere in Neverland – All Time Low
Say goodbye to the halls and the classes
Say hello to a job and the taxes
The weekends with old friends spilling into 9 to 5 routine
Tell me how you feel over and done with
Like your life is a map with no compass to guide,
At the bar drinkin’ way too much
We sing along to “Forever Young”.
NOT that I ever did anything interesting with my life but as I said one of the reasons that I have just been green all week is it feels like I go work, get home and eat, sleep and get up to go back to work.
It doesn’t fully upset me. I mean when I had three weeks off I hated every second of it. But that pretty much was the feeling of this week.
Drift Wood – Travis
I mean you might get the idea right now that I just have 0 energy and that I just don’t know what to do with anything. I mean this blog isn’t making much sense this week and its mainly because I’ve just been green.
Pretty sure next week is going to be a shitty week though.
You’re driftwood floating underwater
Breaking into pieces pieces pieces
Just driftwood hollow and of no use
Waterfalls will find you bind you grind you
So yeah my week has been boring but the most important thing is that its just drained my energy and that is without any really exciting or upsetting things happening. I can’t even think straight at the moment and that is pretty much the biggest problem I’m having right now.
Like this blog makes no sense because I just can’t put words together.
Giving up. Have a nice week.