My first week back at work and boy would you not realise that I’m the same person. I’ve actually been over excited about just going to work.
I am that crazy.
Happy – Pharrell Williams
So as you might have guessed the last few weeks… Pretty much the entirety of my 2018 so far, has not been the happiest place in the world for me.
Therefore going back to work after three weeks off SHOULD technically be just miserable BUT I was actually extremely happy to be back. I was buzzing! It was crazy. I even volunteered myself to till 1 on Tuesday because I was so happy I didn’t like that my friend wasn’t so happy and swapped tills with him.
Huh, because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do
The amount of hugs and fun I’ve had since going back. I mean I’m a bit annoyed that I’m doing the same shift ALL THE TIME but then again I also have to be happy that this week and the next two I have 26 hours which is a great thing, plus this week I did about 30 so even better!
Only person in the world happy to be at work me.
Jump on Demand – Spunge
One thing that really makes me laugh is parents who act like my job is really the worst thing their kids could ever do. Like they don’t say these things, I’m sure, to be mean to me personally and of course you want the best for your kid but at the same time I have a stable job, that I enjoy obviously way too much, a good wage and I’ve ALWAYS worked. Sure I don’t have a fancy degree but my sister does and she doesn’t have a fancy job either.
I’m not the kind of guy who likes to go to work
Its just i need the money oh i dont know why you find that so funny
Maybe I dont look my best
At least I fit in with the rest
So I DONT CARE
I just laugh and this song and its lyrics jump into my head a lot when the school run is on and we’re used as a example of where people have gone wrong in their lives.
Actually mate I’m pretty happy were I am.
Alive – POD
This week has really felt like a reward at the end of a battle. Its been painful, its been horrible and I’ve hated living with myself BUT I’m still here, still breathing and it is a new day.
Everyday is a new day
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I won’t take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
Its just nice for these brief moments in my life when I can look at the last few weeks and say proudly that I survived, because I did. I could have been a lot worse off this week then I am. Life isn’t always easy and I’m one of those people who don’t tend to react well in bad situations, sometimes I get hooked up in something and get so obsessed with it that I just can’t help but get dragged down.
It’s beyond my control, sometimes it’s best to let go
Whatever happens in this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind
Weeks like this though just prove that when you have a positive outlook positive things happen.
Just Looking – Stereophonics
QUITE LITERALLY my excuse for my behaviour on Thursday.
There’s things I want
There’s things I think I want
There’s things I’ve had
There’s things I want to have
I won’t go into it but I was just looking I’ll have everyone know. I know I’ll never get what I was looking at but there is no harm in looking right?
You drenched my head and said what I said
You said that life is what you make of it
Yet most of us just fake
I’m just looking, I’m not buying
I’m just looking, keeps me smiling
As you can tell its been a great week for me. This is kind of a cheat though as I wrote this last night after getting home from more overtime because I knew I’d be out all day today as I’m going to see Big League Wrestling in Exmouth with friends who kindly gave me a ticket for free and who are sorting out transport and everything for me.
This is what I mean by having a positive outlook tends to lead to positive things. I was much more happier this week meaning I didn’t ignore or get angry at people meaning I’m now involved in something. The other week I was moody and didn’t interact and in some ways I’ve now got myself stuck outside of a group I could have been apart of. That is probably something I will naturally sort out in the coming months.
Whilst its still hard working with the guy that I have a crush on I just chilled out a lot more this week working with him and once again I was able to just have normal conversations with him and normal moments. Its all I want, I know he isn’t interested and I have no interest in changing myself for him, even if I say I do when I’m upset, I just want to have a normal relationship with him like I know he has with others.
THANKFULLY I also had it confirmed that some of the shitty things he does to me he does to people he IS nice to as well so I can’t take ANYTHING he does personally because he’s just…. Him.
I think that really is the only way to explain him. He’s a force of awkward, McNugget filled nature.
So whilst you are reading this I’ll be hanging out with friends or on my way to BLW. I’m working tomorrow but I should have a review of the show, probably no photos as I don’t know where my battery charger is and my phone is pretty shit at the moment, out at some point in the next few days. I’m also not working so many days in a row like I was last week so there is a good chance that I’ll get some more stuff done in the week.
Hope you all have had a wonderful week. See you next week!