Do parties and crowds fill you with energy, or send you scurrying for peace and quiet?
What do you think?
I’m introverted so don’t really like parties and crowds but I think that has a lot to do with me thinking that people would have no interest in hearing what I have to say. It also has a lot to do with my paranoia, I’m always worried that people are judging me or just laughing at me.
Someday I kind of hope that I’ll be able to brave it more often but I doubt it.
I’m getting better with certain kind of crowds, as long as I’m not expected to talk or do anything. I still get real paranoid just in general.
The last time I went to a party I’d been dragged along by my ex and I ended up sat behind them all as they played card games, not a single person said a word to me all night and I just had to sit and hope that my friends would text me as I was all on my own. Maybe that is one of the reasons I hate it?
There are many reasons I hate it though.
I’m not sure how to act in social situations I guess which is the hardest part of it all. I don’t want to annoy people or have them think I’m a idiot so I tend to not talk. My biggest problem at times is purely that I stutter, not in the traditional sense but words just refuse to come out of my mouth correctly so it puts me off talking to people.
Its just really hard.